There are many different philosophies and theories on healing after abuse. Some people feel that out of sight, out of mind is the best you can hope for. On the other side of pain, however, I can tell you that though my way hurts a lot initially, it's worth it in the end.
I prayed and prayed, toiled and grieved and made my peace with my past because you know what... there's nothing I can do to change it anyway. The best I could hope for was to use it to empower and warn others. The first few times of sharing my story, I cried and choked up but the more I ministered to others through my own pain, the less pain I felt and the more strength I gained until one day I looked up and found that what I thought had ruined my life had also given me a second chance to do something good and worthwhile.
I encourage you to work through the pain.