There's no sense in denying it. Bouncing back from catastrophe is not an easy job. It takes more than motivational messages. It takes more than knowledge. It also takes the inner desire to bounce back. It takes the faith to believe things can be better for you. This is where almost everyone stumbles.
When you're heart has been broken by abuse, sometimes there's a tendency to feel like nothing is ever going to take that away. And, you're absolutely right. Nothing is going to erase the memory of your abuse. You have to learn to master that memory and control the pain. You have to take the power from the abuser. Nothing does that better than choosing to think differently about yourself. You cannot keep calling yourself a victim and think that you'll be free. Once you're ready for life to move on, you'll have to call yourself a survivor.
It's time for you to believe in yourself and in life again. Things can be better. Even if people don't change for you, you can change for yourself.