Freedom from your past doesn't happen overnight. It takes time and patience, perseverance and more. Don't imagine for a moment that twenty years of damage can be completely erased in a day. While your process can begin with a choice, your healing will take much more. It will take sacrifice. It will take redefining your life and limits. It will take renewing your mind. It will take all you have in you to change your life, but it is worth all the effort and all the time you invest.
Always remember, freedom takes time!